Scared to Follow My Heart

Intro

Soft light, slow breath, oh-oh

I can feel the pull but I can feel the doubt

(uh-huh) amen

Verse

There was a night I almost followed the map in my chest

Dialed a number, opened doors, thinking maybe that was best

Every color felt like truth, every smile felt like spring

But some sweetness hides a knife and some songs stop listening

I learned to taste the warning even when the world sings

Learned that wanting wears a mask and wants to wear my wings

Jeremiah said it plain, said the heart will lead you wrong

"Deceitful above all things," a caution in a song

Pre-chorus

So when the ache gets loud and the wish writes me a lie

I fold my hands, I steady, I breathe slow, I try

To separate the ache from the light that lasts

To keep my feet on solid ground when feelings run too fast

Chorus

I'm scared to follow my heart, oh-oh (oh)

I'm scared to follow my heart, oh-oh (whoa)

I'm scared to follow my heart, it paints the sweetest part

I'm scared to follow my heart, yeah, I'm learning to be smart

Verse

There was a promise whispered like a fever, like a flame

It called me reckless names, it signed me up in your name

I could dress the doubt in hope, could dress the fear in prayer

But Jeremiah keeps ringing like a bell that says beware

If the compass is my feeling, if the map is only me

Then I might be counting mirages where truth should be

So I'll hold the line of reason, I'll wear a careful grace

I'll let the Book speak louder than the ache I can't erase

Pre-chorus

The tide of wanting swells, the mirror wants to lie

(come close) it says "this is the answer," (go on) it begs me to try

But I've seen pretty traps, I've felt the pleasant pain

So I lock the door on impulse and I pray through the strain

Chorus

I'm scared to follow my heart, oh-oh (oh)

I'm scared to follow my heart, oh-oh (whoa)

I'm scared to follow my heart, it paints the sweetest part

I'm scared to follow my heart, yeah, I'm learning to be smart

Bridge

Not a cold denial — I feel, I don't pretend

But when feeling plays the judge, I must not let it send

My steps where truth won't stand, where promises decay

I'll bring my wants to wiser light and ask the Word to weigh

Jeremiah named the danger, named the sickness in the chest

So I won't crown every longing, I won't treat want as blessed

I will listen, I will test, I will slow the fevered rush

Let faith and reason marry, let patience hush the hush

(amen) oh-oh, amen

Chorus

I'm scared to follow my heart, oh-oh (oh)

I'm scared to follow my heart, oh-oh (whoa)

I'm scared to follow my heart, it paints the sweetest part

I'm scared to follow my heart, yeah, I'm learning to be smart

Outro

Hush the hurry, hush the rush, let steady be my art

I'll love, I'll live, I'll guard the gate — I'm scared to follow my heart