Still Searching

Intro

Yeah…

Verse

I don’t talk much, I just sit with the pain,

Room full of people but I still feel strange,

Smiles on my face but my heart feels caged,

I say “I’m okay” like it don’t feel fake

Verse

I grew up hearing silence louder than screams,

Dreams in my head but they laugh when I speak,

I tried being strong, I tried being me,

But every step forward felt like defeat

Chorus

I prayed on my knees with my head real low,

Asking God why this hurt won’t go,

If You hear me now, just give me a sign,

‘Cause I’m losing myself in my own mind

Verse

People love me when I’m useful to them,

Disappear fast when I need a hand,

I learned real quick how to stand alone,

How to smile outside while my heart is broke

Verse

I write all my pain just to breathe a bit,

Code on the screen but my soul feels split,

I’m chasing a future I can’t yet see,

Running from the past that keeps chasing me

Bridge

I don’t want fame, I don’t want the light,

I just want peace when I sleep at night,

If I go quiet, don’t say I changed,

I’ve been fighting demons you never faced

Chorus

I’m still searching… yeah, I’m still lost,

Still counting the damage, still feeling the cost,

If I stop pretending, if I speak my truth,

Would you stay… or just walk right through?

Outro

Yeah…

I’m still here…

Even if it doesn’t feel like it.