Choosing Myself

Verse

I’m choosing myself, though it tears me apart,

I’m choosing my peace, I’m protecting my heart.

For years I kept waiting, believing in signs,

Convincing myself that someday you’d be mine.

Verse

You’d give me the signs, then act completely changed,

One moment so close, the next distant and strange.

You’d pull me in softly, then push me away,

Leaving me wondering what you would say.

Chorus

I’m choosing myself, though it tears me apart,

I’m choosing my peace, I’m protecting my heart.

Verse

You played with my heart, though you may not have known,

You made me feel wanted, then left me alone.

You gave me a reason to hope and believe,

Then took it away whenever you’d leave.

Verse

So I’m not waiting around for your heart anymore,

I’m closing the chapter, I’m locking the door.

No more wondering if you’ll finally see,

No more asking what we were meant to be.

Bridge

Though it hurts, and the years of waiting still call,

A part of me whispers, “Don’t leave after all.”

It tells me to stay, to give you one more chance,

To hold onto hope, to wait for romance.

But hope can be heavy when carried too long,

And sometimes what’s right still feels terribly wrong.

Chorus

I’m choosing myself, though it tears me apart,

I’m choosing my peace, I’m protecting my heart.

Verse

I’ll miss all the moments that never came true,

The future I dreamed I could someday have with you.

I’ll mourn every “maybe,” each “what if,” each “when,”

And wish for the chance to begin again.

Verse

So I’ll gather my heart from the pieces you broke,

And breathe through the memories, the silence, the smoke.

I’ll carry the lessons, but leave you behind,

And slowly reclaim every piece of my mind.

Outro

I’m choosing myself, and I finally know why:

Some endings are needed so new dreams can fly.

And though my heart aches as I turn and depart,

I’m choosing my future, my peace, and my heart.