White Flag in the Dark

Verse

I’m checking the locks but the hurt is inside

A house full of ghosts with nowhere to hide

I look in the mirror and turn off the light

'Cause the person I see hasn’t put up a fight.

I’m sorry for words that I used like a blade

For the debts of my heart that can’t be repaid

I’m tired of trying to mend what I’ve torn

I’m just so heavy, and quiet, and worn.

Chorus

And I’m waving a white flag here in the dark

Searching for hope but I can't find a spark

I told you I’m fine, but I’m losing the race

I’m a stranger to mercy, a stranger to grace.

I’ve let you down, and I’ve let myself go

How much is left? I really don’t know.

Just a body that’s breathing, a mind that is gray

I’m not okay. I’m just not okay.

Bridge

I used to look up and ask for a sign

But the sky is just empty, and none of it’s mine.

The prayers feel like static, the faith feels like lead

I’m giving up ghosts for the silence instead.

Verse

There’s no more pretending, the ink has run dry

I’m too tired to live, but too hollow to die.

I see the disappointment etched in your face

A shadow of someone I can't quite replace.

I’m folding the map, I’m stopping the clock

I’m tired of the keys not fitting the lock.

Maybe the "ugly" is all that is real

When you’ve run out of ways to pretend you can feel.

Outro

Just let the room grow cold.

I’ve got no stories left to be told.

No more prayers, no more light.

Just the white flag... In the dark tonight.

(Not okay...) (I’m just not okay.)