Loved You Like a Grudge

Intro

I don’t hate you

I just remember everything

Verse

Your name still shakes my hands

Like broken glass I won’t let go

Every word you ever said

Still rings inside my bones

I learned your silence

Like a language I never chose

Every scar you left in me

Is the only way I know

Chorus

I loved you like a grudge

I held you through the pain

Every time I tried to let go

You carved yourself again

I loved you like a fight

I never meant to win

If loving you is violence

I’d do it all again

Verse

Your shadow sleeps beside me

Even when you’re gone

I measure time in memories

I replay when I’m wrong

I don’t need forgiveness

I don’t need you clean

I just need to know

You felt the same in me

Chorus

I loved you like a grudge

Heavy, loud, and true

I bled devotion quietly

In everything I do

I loved you past the break

Past reason, past repair

If love is what still hurts this bad

Then love was always there

Bridge

Say it was real

Say it still counts

Say I wasn’t the only one breaking down

I carried your weight

I carry it still

If this is love, I always will

Outro

I don’t hate you

I just loved you too hard