Still Here

Verse

Woke up with a weight I can’t explain

Same ceiling, same fight in my brain

Cold March morning, gray won’t leave

Feels like the sky’s pressing down on me

Got a letter on the table, unopened fear

Says this road’s still long from here

Thought I hit bottom, thought I’d break

But it keeps on coming, wave after wave

Pre-chorus

I’m tired in a way sleep won’t fix

Caught between surrender and clenched fists

Chorus

I’m not giving up, I’m just worn thin

Holding on with shaking hands again

This feels heavy ‘cause it is, I know

But I’m still here… I’m still here though

Not who I was, not who they say

Somewhere in between the grace and the blame

If I can’t see five steps, I’ll take one more

I’m still here… and that’s enough for now

Verse

Courtroom lights and a hollow sound

Names and numbers getting passed around

Standing there while they read my name

Trying to breathe through the weight of shame

People wrote letters, said I’m still good

Say I’m more than the worst thing I’ve done

But it’s hard to believe when I look inside

Feels like I’m someone I don’t recognize

Pre-chorus

They say “you knew better,” yeah I did

But knowing don’t make you immune to this

Chorus

I’m not giving up, I’m just worn thin

Holding on with shaking hands again

This feels heavy ‘cause it is, I know

But I’m still here… I’m still here though

Not who I was, not who they say

Somewhere in between the grace and the blame

If I can’t see five steps, I’ll take one more

I’m still here… and that’s enough for now

Bridge

I screamed at God, then begged Him to stay

Fought the dark, then fell on my face

Thought He’d save me from all of this

But maybe He’s saving me from myself in it

Sweeping floors, learning slow

What it means just to let go

Not the man I thought I’d be

But maybe closer to who I need to be

I don’t need to win today

I just need to not walk away

From my life, from the ones I love

From the man I’m becoming from

Chorus

I’m not giving up, I’m just worn thin

But there’s something stronger underneath my skin

This feels heavy, yeah it still hurts

But I’m still here… and I’m going to work

Through the grief, through the cost

Through the parts of me I lost

If grace is real, then I’ll stand in it now

I’m still here… and that’s enough right now

Outro

“This feels heavy… because it is…

But I’m still here.”