Choosing Myself

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I’m choosing myself, though it tears me apart,

I’m choosing my peace, I’m protecting my heart.

For years I kept waiting, believing in signs,

Convincing myself that someday you’d be mine.

You’d give me the signs, then act completely changed,

One moment so close, the next distant and strange.

You’d pull me in softly, then push me away,

Leaving me wondering what you would say.

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I searched every glance, every word, every smile,

And waited for you, mile after mile.

I held onto moments you probably forgot,

Made something from nothing and gave it my all.

You played with my heart, though you may not have known,

You made me feel wanted, then left me alone.

Chorus

So I’m not waiting around for your heart anymore,

I’m closing the chapter, I’m locking the door.

No more wondering if you’ll finally see,

No more asking what we were meant to be.

I’m choosing myself for my heart and my mind,

For all of the pieces I’m leaving behind.

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Though it hurts, and the years of waiting still call,

A part of me whispers, “Don’t leave after all.”

But hope can be heavy when carried too long,

And sometimes what’s right still feels terribly wrong.

I’ll miss all the moments that never came true,

The future I dreamed I could someday have with you.

Chorus

I’m choosing myself, though it tears me apart,

I’m choosing my peace, I’m protecting my heart.

I loved you enough to keep waiting in pain,

But now I love me enough to break from the chain.

So goodbye to the signs, and goodbye to the doubt,

I’m choosing my future, my peace, and my heart.