Choosing Myself

Verse

I heard your name before I saw you

Whispered underneath the gymlights

Someone said you’d been with her

And I laughed like they had it wrong

But then I saw the way you looked away

And suddenly I knew

Verse

There are some truths you can’t outrun

No matter how much I wanted to

You said it didn’t mean a thing

But that’s an easy thing to say

When you’re not the one who spent the night

Wondering what you gave away

Chorus

So don’t come knocking at my door

With your sorry in your hands

Don’t tell me that you missed me

Like I’m supposed to understand

You were the one who broke the silence

You were the one who crossed the line

And I loved you enough to hate you

For making me cry

Maybe I’ll forgive you someday

Maybe I’ll even let you stay

But you don’t get to decide that

You don’t get to walk away

Verse

I remember summer evenings

When you’d meet me by the stairs

You’d make me laugh until I couldn’t

And I thought that you cared

Maybe I mistook your silence

For a promise you had made

Maybe I was just a girl

Who believed you’d never change

Chorus

So don’t come knocking at my door

With your sorry in your hands

Don’t tell me that you missed me

Like I’m supposed to understand

You were the one who broke the silence

You were the one who crossed the line

And I loved you enough to hate you

For making me cry

Maybe I’ll forgive you someday

Maybe I’ll even let you stay

But you don’t get to decide that

You don’t get to walk away

Bridge

And if you’re standing on my porch

Thinking I’ll run into your arms

You should know I’m not the same girl

Who believed in all your charms

I still remember how you held me

I still remember every word

And maybe that’s the hardest part

I still love you, and it hurts

Chorus

You can come knocking at my door

When you're ready to be honest

When you're ready to admit

That you were careless with my heart

I won't promise I'll forgive you

I won't promise I'll forget

But if you love me like you say you do

Maybe we aren't finished yet

Outro

And I'll meet you by the garden

Where we used to talk at night

You can tell me what you're sorry for

And I'll tell you if you're right

Because love isn't just a feeling

It's the choices that you make

And if you want me beside you

You'll have to earn the chance to stay

So don't call me your almost

Don't call me your regret

If you want to be with Betty

Then show me you won't forget

That my heart isn't a game

And I'm not the girl you left

Maybe someday I'll forgive you

But tonight, I'm choosing myself